My Performance and Antidote for my Survival

Don't tell me you love me, I know you don't. Pain is all I feel when your mind besieges me. Sure I seem happy, I put on a smile, its just my performance and antidote for my survival, in your world I can't survive for long, so I'm forced to ignore my instincts and go about on what is best for my well being. 

-There are some people in the world that only cause you pain after your moment of happiness, sadly he can't leave me alone, and I can't do the same for my happiness. Oh, well. I guess thats just how the world works...